Monday, January 2, 2012

Painful it is, but I dunno what to do

Its been getting frustrating lately.
I know my blog has been soaking in silent waters for god know how long, cuz I didn't feel like writing or I had nothing to write.
But its just some things that have been bothering me as of late. Honestly Bothering me alot.
This blog is private, I dunno why the heck do I even bother posting here.

Hehe

quite the joke. My dear keyboards is now my friend for ranting. Haha.

Anyways, its been making me pissed lately that welll, lets change the topic ba. Or maybe how I'll state my issues.

Firstly, I am now doing up a costumes and props group with a couple of closer friends.
Initially I had problems with ZH, but now I see problems with others that I didn't expect to have. I've always heard issues about these people from my other friends, esp girlfriends, but I kinda didn't listen and was like, lets just get on with this.

Now I kinda regret.
Trust, friendship and even well, anger I guess.
Honestly I really dunno how to describe it anymore.
Its like well, lets have the story from the start.
sorry poor keyboard for slamming a whole load of useless texts into you.

Ok, Lets first of start by Saying it all happened because I had a chat with this banana, I dunno what to call him anymore. Cardo I think works. Thanks Hellfang for that stupid inspiration or whatever that is.

Cardo it is.

Ok, this Cardo, I was having a chat with him and suddenly he starts yelling. Trying to prove a point. I dunno if this is how guys like to communicate, but when you yell, it becomes one way, unless I am pissed.

yes I do understand I did not clarify matters and started raging about it. Of course, this pissed me off. Yes its my fault. And I know.

Now, he goes round the world Q.Qing and all, spreading rumors, and it all just links back to him.

Then when I gather evidence, I had this other friend of mine to like be the in-between man. but somehow, I help it was Sketchy and unreliable.

I just had that feeling.

So this Cardo now claims he hasn't met anyone since an outing with this friend of mine who was now the in between communicator.

But obviously Facebook has denied his point. I didn't want to argue. This in between guy just seemed so one sided. If I were to put it.

Somehow, it feels like the trust isn't there.

And this Cardo guy thinks that as long as you rage you have it your way. You rage, you can say anything you want.

But now the issue is, I feel, he's just getting by because he doesn't care about others, and the only reason why he's alive now is cuz this is Singapore and he's got a few good friends around him.

Somehow, I feel like guys are straight forward. Too straight forward. When they are complex, I dunno what the hell is going on.

Honestly, I don't know how to put this, but trusting a guy is horrendous. Esp these kind of guys.

I guess I just have to put up with it and just cry through it.


WHHEEEE on my road to depression again.

Then Again, there's this girl, who's just fallen into depression. One moment ago I wanted to help her. Now. I myself am lost.

How's that gonna work. Sigh.

Life sucks.

>.<

*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
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