Sunday, February 7, 2010
Quick stuff I typed
I would have woken up, in a soft bed, padded with many layers of cushion. My first sight would be soft white nettings surrounding me. I would have sat up and see a room, filled with plush toys, a window with the sunlight beaming through gracefully. I would have had my first step of the day, on soft carpeted floor and greeted by a tall handsome butler.
If only I started my life everyday, as a princess.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|3:53 AM|
Just when I thought things were better
Yup, just when I thought everything was going better, or now that I look back, a fucking stalemate.
For like the past month of so, I didn't really have much emotional crap, well, ok, there was one. Fuck that idiot who tried to sabo me. Fuck him srsly. He got what he fucking deserves. And its called fuck him with a rusty iron pole. Ok, that settles.
Ya, now, I know for sure, I am fucking unstable and fragile as always. Yes, my mind is messed up as usual. Hahaha, its messed up. ^^
You see, today, at my grandma's place, we were having reunion dinner. Steamboat. Then, all was good, but my aunts had to spoil my day, as in srsly spoil it. They had to say that only gays trim their eyebrows. That when they saw my trimmed eyebrows. To say honestly, I find them cute. Srsly. But having my aunts say it, I am very hurt. Seriously.
Its like, I wanna be considered a girl, not a gay. Cuz I so not wanna be the boyfriend of the relationship, even if my partner is a guy. Dammit.
Seriously, for some reason, I feel so damn irritated by this. Like, I don't feel any support, I feel helpless.
And tada, here I am, sleepless.
Cough medicine is failing on me. First time its failing.
Yup, my mind has gone yahoo, literally.
I really dunno what should I do next. I know I can't stand still forever, it might just be my fucking limit. Its like, I am at the point, I dunno anymore. I can't move, no one will help me, my family that is. I am just so stuck. I dunno anymore. I am at my limit. I think.
Or maybe this is just a heavy hit.
Whatever the case, I am stuck, and I cannot stand much. I can feel it.
ANymore, I might just be too weak.
I am messed up.
Known fact from the start.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|3:14 AM|
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Quick stuff I typed
I would have woken up, in a soft bed, padded with many layers of cushion. My first sight would be soft white nettings surrounding me. I would have sat up and see a room, filled with plush toys, a window with the sunlight beaming through gracefully. I would have had my first step of the day, on soft carpeted floor and greeted by a tall handsome butler.
If only I started my life everyday, as a princess.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|3:53 AM|
Just when I thought things were better
Yup, just when I thought everything was going better, or now that I look back, a fucking stalemate.
For like the past month of so, I didn't really have much emotional crap, well, ok, there was one. Fuck that idiot who tried to sabo me. Fuck him srsly. He got what he fucking deserves. And its called fuck him with a rusty iron pole. Ok, that settles.
Ya, now, I know for sure, I am fucking unstable and fragile as always. Yes, my mind is messed up as usual. Hahaha, its messed up. ^^
You see, today, at my grandma's place, we were having reunion dinner. Steamboat. Then, all was good, but my aunts had to spoil my day, as in srsly spoil it. They had to say that only gays trim their eyebrows. That when they saw my trimmed eyebrows. To say honestly, I find them cute. Srsly. But having my aunts say it, I am very hurt. Seriously.
Its like, I wanna be considered a girl, not a gay. Cuz I so not wanna be the boyfriend of the relationship, even if my partner is a guy. Dammit.
Seriously, for some reason, I feel so damn irritated by this. Like, I don't feel any support, I feel helpless.
And tada, here I am, sleepless.
Cough medicine is failing on me. First time its failing.
Yup, my mind has gone yahoo, literally.
I really dunno what should I do next. I know I can't stand still forever, it might just be my fucking limit. Its like, I am at the point, I dunno anymore. I can't move, no one will help me, my family that is. I am just so stuck. I dunno anymore. I am at my limit. I think.
Or maybe this is just a heavy hit.
Whatever the case, I am stuck, and I cannot stand much. I can feel it.
ANymore, I might just be too weak.
I am messed up.
Known fact from the start.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|3:14 AM|
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