Saturday, November 14, 2009
More Sane now, I think? Sane is the correct word to use rite? XD
Ok, I was thinking for a while, but ya, I think Sane is the right word to use. Its the opposite of insane rite?, I think, lazy 2 check dictionary.com. :P
Ok Ok, now, let me start somewhere.
Yesh, my mind was going bogus like just a few days ago. I could not really keep up with my thoughts seriously. Its like, all in a mess.
Now at least now peaceful thoughts, I think. XD
Managed to actually find someone, whom I can rant all the weird weird things I read. XD
Ya, but still, I dun really noe what the hell am I thinking.
Seriously, I dunno what am thinking.
Yesh, I some sort just double posted the same thing, diff sentence. WTF.
Ok, anyways, I dunno, but I do feel much much much more relax after yesterday as well. Took a day off as a guy. Its really so I dunno, mind relaxing? I guess something along that line or something. Yesh, and I really really really need, more like want, a wider range in my wardrobe. And and >.<, children clothes are awesome. And and, yesterday @ forum, I saw this awesome awesome black jacket, but I could not be bothered to look at the price. Cuz its a definate over 9000 cents, AKA $90, which is so off my budget.
T_T
but anyways, did some shopping, and now my wanna buy things have like rocketed. T_T
Not enuff $$$$$$$$ >.<
Anyways, I'm heading over seas, specifically, over local seas. XD
So will be MIA for like 1 day. XD byezzzzzzzzzzzz
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|8:22 AM|
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Getting fustrated with myself
I dunno why, but these 4 weeks seems to be not so good for me. I dunno how to say, but I'm getting pissed at too many things.
Firstly, I am pissed with my project group.
Secondly, I am pissed off by some idiot, Brian, I heck care about his privacy liao, I just state it liao.
Next, I am also pissed at my work place. No problem must make problem for me. Crap it lah.
Next, I oso very irritated and pissed with myself. Over so many stupid things. Seriously.
I dunno whats going on in my head, but I noe, I am messed up. Very.
Argh
ok, firstly, I noe that I am born a guy, and thats irritating me, alot.
I dunno, its like, I got super pissed, over no apparent reason when some ppl were talkin bout adam apple. And srsly, I get super pissed off when someone tries to be funny with my when I'm dressed as a girl. As in, I can seriously Slap the hell out of that person. Dunno if its just me or wat.
Just irritates me, like I am over sensative.
Then again, I dunno. Fuck it.
And recently, I noe I am working alot alot alone, cuz I just can't stand getting irritated, esp these 2 weeks. When I think about it, I can only think of 1 stupid answer.
I need another day off as a girl. Ok, maybe I am just thinking to much, but I think I might just be going Mad.
And yes, my mom saw my MSN display pics of me as a girl and we started arguing. Seriously, I really dunno why she just find it so hard to accept, also like I oso find it so hard to explain things to her.
Damn my stupid self.
I dunno, I almost like over spent on wigs, cuz I finding my long wig hard to maintain. I starting to face wig fiber loss.
And now the thing is, I want a not black wig, but yet I a bit shy to try something not black. Like purple. Or maybe blue.
Stupid right. Not being able to do what I want just cuz I am too shy. >.<
Seriously, and I am getting very very irritated by how my body functions. I noe its like any other normal Male, but I just am getting irritated by it.
Yesh I am starting to have stupid thoughts of getting someone to kick me in my balls and hope they spoil, for good. Makes things so much easier to explain to my mom. that way.
Oh and accident happened. So I shud just get rid of the rest of the useless material and live properly as a girl. WTF, yes I think I am going a bit off.
Mad i think.
Well, the reason I didn't want to blog for so long, was stupid. First 2 weeks, too happy and cannot be bothered. next two weeks, I'm going mad on the inside.
WTF
I seriously dunno what the hell am I actually thinking.
Conclusion
I am in PMS state
Needs a day off being male
Needs to fix my thinking.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|12:26 AM|
Saturday, November 14, 2009
More Sane now, I think? Sane is the correct word to use rite? XD
Ok, I was thinking for a while, but ya, I think Sane is the right word to use. Its the opposite of insane rite?, I think, lazy 2 check dictionary.com. :P
Ok Ok, now, let me start somewhere.
Yesh, my mind was going bogus like just a few days ago. I could not really keep up with my thoughts seriously. Its like, all in a mess.
Now at least now peaceful thoughts, I think. XD
Managed to actually find someone, whom I can rant all the weird weird things I read. XD
Ya, but still, I dun really noe what the hell am I thinking.
Seriously, I dunno what am thinking.
Yesh, I some sort just double posted the same thing, diff sentence. WTF.
Ok, anyways, I dunno, but I do feel much much much more relax after yesterday as well. Took a day off as a guy. Its really so I dunno, mind relaxing? I guess something along that line or something. Yesh, and I really really really need, more like want, a wider range in my wardrobe. And and >.<, children clothes are awesome. And and, yesterday @ forum, I saw this awesome awesome black jacket, but I could not be bothered to look at the price. Cuz its a definate over 9000 cents, AKA $90, which is so off my budget.
T_T
but anyways, did some shopping, and now my wanna buy things have like rocketed. T_T
Not enuff $$$$$$$$ >.<
Anyways, I'm heading over seas, specifically, over local seas. XD
So will be MIA for like 1 day. XD byezzzzzzzzzzzz
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|8:22 AM|
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Getting fustrated with myself
I dunno why, but these 4 weeks seems to be not so good for me. I dunno how to say, but I'm getting pissed at too many things.
Firstly, I am pissed with my project group.
Secondly, I am pissed off by some idiot, Brian, I heck care about his privacy liao, I just state it liao.
Next, I am also pissed at my work place. No problem must make problem for me. Crap it lah.
Next, I oso very irritated and pissed with myself. Over so many stupid things. Seriously.
I dunno whats going on in my head, but I noe, I am messed up. Very.
Argh
ok, firstly, I noe that I am born a guy, and thats irritating me, alot.
I dunno, its like, I got super pissed, over no apparent reason when some ppl were talkin bout adam apple. And srsly, I get super pissed off when someone tries to be funny with my when I'm dressed as a girl. As in, I can seriously Slap the hell out of that person. Dunno if its just me or wat.
Just irritates me, like I am over sensative.
Then again, I dunno. Fuck it.
And recently, I noe I am working alot alot alone, cuz I just can't stand getting irritated, esp these 2 weeks. When I think about it, I can only think of 1 stupid answer.
I need another day off as a girl. Ok, maybe I am just thinking to much, but I think I might just be going Mad.
And yes, my mom saw my MSN display pics of me as a girl and we started arguing. Seriously, I really dunno why she just find it so hard to accept, also like I oso find it so hard to explain things to her.
Damn my stupid self.
I dunno, I almost like over spent on wigs, cuz I finding my long wig hard to maintain. I starting to face wig fiber loss.
And now the thing is, I want a not black wig, but yet I a bit shy to try something not black. Like purple. Or maybe blue.
Stupid right. Not being able to do what I want just cuz I am too shy. >.<
Seriously, and I am getting very very irritated by how my body functions. I noe its like any other normal Male, but I just am getting irritated by it.
Yesh I am starting to have stupid thoughts of getting someone to kick me in my balls and hope they spoil, for good. Makes things so much easier to explain to my mom. that way.
Oh and accident happened. So I shud just get rid of the rest of the useless material and live properly as a girl. WTF, yes I think I am going a bit off.
Mad i think.
Well, the reason I didn't want to blog for so long, was stupid. First 2 weeks, too happy and cannot be bothered. next two weeks, I'm going mad on the inside.
WTF
I seriously dunno what the hell am I actually thinking.
Conclusion
I am in PMS state
Needs a day off being male
Needs to fix my thinking.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|12:26 AM|
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