Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wasted another night.
Like stated, I didn't sleep again. I'm like all shack now, but I just can't seem to sleep. Still... Wans my sleep.
Well, Through the night thinking of so many things.
Rants.
Well, one of the thoughts that took up alot of mental power was with regads to WK. SHould I like confess or just keep silent. I find myself really stupid to be hogged up with such a thing. But then again. Ah~~~ I dunno lah.
Seriously, when I think about it, I dun really understand myself sometimes.
I really get very pissed at myself sometimes for thinking too much.
I really feel useless sometimes.
And also, cuz most of the time, I actually go back home with Litchie, its very stressful sometimes. Cuz I know he's worried about me, and he knows me probably better than most people, minus the fact that I wanna be a girl and my targets. So sometimes, when there is too much on my mind, he can tell. Then I know he's questioning me, trying to help me. Yet I have to put up a tough front sometimes. Its painful. Very.
I don't want to worry him, yet I can't tell him, or rather, I dunno how things will change if I tell him.
I know it myself, I like changes, yet I hate them. I hate losing what I have. I really don't want it, yet I want more. But its all give and take. Give and take.
Seriously, this really sucks.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|11:02 AM|
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wasted another night.
Like stated, I didn't sleep again. I'm like all shack now, but I just can't seem to sleep. Still... Wans my sleep.
Well, Through the night thinking of so many things.
Rants.
Well, one of the thoughts that took up alot of mental power was with regads to WK. SHould I like confess or just keep silent. I find myself really stupid to be hogged up with such a thing. But then again. Ah~~~ I dunno lah.
Seriously, when I think about it, I dun really understand myself sometimes.
I really get very pissed at myself sometimes for thinking too much.
I really feel useless sometimes.
And also, cuz most of the time, I actually go back home with Litchie, its very stressful sometimes. Cuz I know he's worried about me, and he knows me probably better than most people, minus the fact that I wanna be a girl and my targets. So sometimes, when there is too much on my mind, he can tell. Then I know he's questioning me, trying to help me. Yet I have to put up a tough front sometimes. Its painful. Very.
I don't want to worry him, yet I can't tell him, or rather, I dunno how things will change if I tell him.
I know it myself, I like changes, yet I hate them. I hate losing what I have. I really don't want it, yet I want more. But its all give and take. Give and take.
Seriously, this really sucks.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|11:02 AM|
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