Monday, July 27, 2009
Trying to keep up a front
Well, like my title states, these few days I was trying to keep up a front quite a bit.Honestly, quite a lot. I noe my silence and my hype is like on and off, on and off. Well, I personally feel very tired sometimes, yet I still want to maintain a fake image of myself, or at least I feel.
Walk past clothes shops, well, girls cloths, I really sometimes feel like going a bit crazy, but have been stoning and keeping quiet instead. Its a bit stressful sometimes. Keeping that kind of fake front is tiring.
I dunno, I think well, I pretty much got over the fact that I'm flat, but yah, it still bugs me, but have to bear with it. Aside from that, there are like so many clothes and things I'd like to buy. No money, and my mom will simply kill me.
Online 'window' shopping is still the best. As long as its not Tao Bao, since I noe I can't do bank transfers and all. So I can eye and target for as much as I wan. Go whining in front of my cute screen but get nothing done. XD.
And well, I the other day, went to buy Yukata Cloth. I seriously could not stand the fact that guys Yukatas suppose to be plain. Cuz its just too plain. Flowery and leafy designs for the wins. >.<
Got an orange print Yukata. There were a few others I really wanted, but its either too pink, or too expensive. My mom will so kill me if she found me having a Pink Yukata and I can't wear it to Natsu Matsuri either. >.<
Yukata..... Nu....
Yesh yesh, and not to forget, there was this very pretty cloth with kira kira on it. Luvs >.<
Yesh.
And well, we did not really do much shopping that day. so XD. Though I saw a couple of nice clothes at the My Playground place at Suntec. Some of which were like so Ahhhh~~~~. Really want to buy, but tight on cash.
And then and then, yesh we went to watch Fire Works.
Well, I was irritated that Litchie and the background was joking about our tax money blwing up in the sky. Well, personally I felt very nostalgic, sad or what so ever. So ya, I got kinda pissed there.
To be honest, I dunno if I actually like fire works.
Personally I'm kinda confused.
Cuz fire works remind me of the times when I'd sit on my dad's shoulders and watch the fire works. I really dunno but yah, I feel like I still miss my dad alot. THough sometimes I psycho myself that I got over it. But I really miss him.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|12:33 AM|
Monday, July 27, 2009
Trying to keep up a front
Well, like my title states, these few days I was trying to keep up a front quite a bit.Honestly, quite a lot. I noe my silence and my hype is like on and off, on and off. Well, I personally feel very tired sometimes, yet I still want to maintain a fake image of myself, or at least I feel.
Walk past clothes shops, well, girls cloths, I really sometimes feel like going a bit crazy, but have been stoning and keeping quiet instead. Its a bit stressful sometimes. Keeping that kind of fake front is tiring.
I dunno, I think well, I pretty much got over the fact that I'm flat, but yah, it still bugs me, but have to bear with it. Aside from that, there are like so many clothes and things I'd like to buy. No money, and my mom will simply kill me.
Online 'window' shopping is still the best. As long as its not Tao Bao, since I noe I can't do bank transfers and all. So I can eye and target for as much as I wan. Go whining in front of my cute screen but get nothing done. XD.
And well, I the other day, went to buy Yukata Cloth. I seriously could not stand the fact that guys Yukatas suppose to be plain. Cuz its just too plain. Flowery and leafy designs for the wins. >.<
Got an orange print Yukata. There were a few others I really wanted, but its either too pink, or too expensive. My mom will so kill me if she found me having a Pink Yukata and I can't wear it to Natsu Matsuri either. >.<
Yukata..... Nu....
Yesh yesh, and not to forget, there was this very pretty cloth with kira kira on it. Luvs >.<
Yesh.
And well, we did not really do much shopping that day. so XD. Though I saw a couple of nice clothes at the My Playground place at Suntec. Some of which were like so Ahhhh~~~~. Really want to buy, but tight on cash.
And then and then, yesh we went to watch Fire Works.
Well, I was irritated that Litchie and the background was joking about our tax money blwing up in the sky. Well, personally I felt very nostalgic, sad or what so ever. So ya, I got kinda pissed there.
To be honest, I dunno if I actually like fire works.
Personally I'm kinda confused.
Cuz fire works remind me of the times when I'd sit on my dad's shoulders and watch the fire works. I really dunno but yah, I feel like I still miss my dad alot. THough sometimes I psycho myself that I got over it. But I really miss him.
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|12:33 AM|
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