Thursday, June 25, 2009
USB error
At this moment, my usb having some error, so my mouse not working.
All will be fine as soon as I restart my comp, but now, its damn irritating. Very.
Ok, once again, here I go ranting again. XD
Well, today second dance session.
Fun I guess.
Danced quite a number of old dances.
Talked to Ah Gong about collabing our dance group with another outside group. He was ok with the plan. Though I have to say, I know he's not really ready yet.
Ah Gong is still confused, very in fact.
He's starting to speak up, getting interested in another girl and all.
Then he stills go on saying about how it is impossible for him to chase another girl and all.
Well, in the end, I feel its just his self confidence. He needs something to really boost it up. If not everything will be impossible for him.
He always claims his feelings are not for him to control, and he can't ignore it. And that is his reason for his handicap. Sometimes, I really feel like taking a drill, drill a hole in his head and just dump some sense into him.
Yes, another thing I seriously get very pissed by is he refuses to move on his own. I have to drag him, push him and all. But I'm not giving up, not anytime soon. Sometimes, I feel like I'm becoming like his guardian angel or something like that. What I can say, he's not the hardest guy to save out there.
Since then, when I started afresh, there has only been one guy I could not save. He soils the dirty image of guys which is already dirty enough. Sometimes, he makes me feel sick. Sometimes, ULTIMATE FACEPALM.
Ok, that aside, yes, today, dance session, I wasn't really enjoying it much, in a certain way.
Ok as I am typing this post, I am on MSN with AH Gong. Since my blog posts I just post things off my mind, so yah, might be a bit messy.
ok, before I loose my mood to talk about today.
Yesh, One of the girls
SHE CAN'T SHAKE HER HIPS, at the start.
I just find it so so so WASTED. I wan those hourglass shape, she has it, but she was wasting it, she almost wasted it forever. Yes, until I somehow got her shaking. Yesh, Litchie helped me alot.
Agh, yes, I still feel so jealous.
NIDS TO LOOSE WEIGHT.....
Ok, Yes, somehow today, I think that lolicon somehow suspected I was wearing something underneath my shirt. Somehow. Yes, I was wearing my Pink Tube today.
Maybe I was just a bit too conscious, maybe.
AGRHHHH I wan 2 not cut my hair..... Seriously, whats with my mom...
Back to Ah Gong. Need to relieve some steam, even though I'm not through with him for the night.
I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HE WANTS TODAY.
Disclaimer, what I may be saying may just be a bit overboard, but ya, I really need to vent something.
I HAVE FUCKING NO IDEA WHAT IS WRONG WITH GUYS.
Day in day out, they only know how to look at chio bu.
The come to CCA. Only want to find Girlfriend.
No girlfriend will die ah.
Almost all the guys I see in my CCA like that. ALmost all.
Esp Ah Gong. He's just beating ound the bush. Saying what, he cannot target a girl, yet he down there telling me he wants to date that girl. Then now he tells me its a blankshot. Fucking hell, what is he thinking.
And Fucking hell, he down here trying to get him fucking out of this round a bout, anf he offline.
Seriously, he just wants a girl, to boost his fucking moral, so that he can depend on someone. He always says he's independent, but fucking not. I know that. ALmost my entire CCA know that. His Ex prob also know that.
I now am fucking asking myself, why am I still trying to fucking help him. I can easily like dicard him as a fucking fail, but I don't undertand. WHy am I still helping him?
I'm tired, I'm not oblidged to help, yet I am there for him.
I know he helped me, but thinking back, he never went the extra mile. He only did what was convienient. And I have no fucking idea why am I here pushing on, running half the world for him. Looking for answers he should be finding himself.
I feel like a mom. I don't know anymore sometimes.
Everytime I think he made progress, he proves me wrong.
I don't want him to bring everyone around down with him.
I'm still running, forward onward, for him.
Why is he still trying to be a baby.
I'm not gonna give up, I can still do it, there is still hope, something he denies.
I've come this far, why give up.
I looks like square one. Back to when he thinks he's a fucking open book and is not fucking telling us anything. Just that now. Its me alone.
A whole new level, new answer, new denials, same ah gong, same shit, same me
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|2:47 AM|
Thursday, June 25, 2009
USB error
At this moment, my usb having some error, so my mouse not working.
All will be fine as soon as I restart my comp, but now, its damn irritating. Very.
Ok, once again, here I go ranting again. XD
Well, today second dance session.
Fun I guess.
Danced quite a number of old dances.
Talked to Ah Gong about collabing our dance group with another outside group. He was ok with the plan. Though I have to say, I know he's not really ready yet.
Ah Gong is still confused, very in fact.
He's starting to speak up, getting interested in another girl and all.
Then he stills go on saying about how it is impossible for him to chase another girl and all.
Well, in the end, I feel its just his self confidence. He needs something to really boost it up. If not everything will be impossible for him.
He always claims his feelings are not for him to control, and he can't ignore it. And that is his reason for his handicap. Sometimes, I really feel like taking a drill, drill a hole in his head and just dump some sense into him.
Yes, another thing I seriously get very pissed by is he refuses to move on his own. I have to drag him, push him and all. But I'm not giving up, not anytime soon. Sometimes, I feel like I'm becoming like his guardian angel or something like that. What I can say, he's not the hardest guy to save out there.
Since then, when I started afresh, there has only been one guy I could not save. He soils the dirty image of guys which is already dirty enough. Sometimes, he makes me feel sick. Sometimes, ULTIMATE FACEPALM.
Ok, that aside, yes, today, dance session, I wasn't really enjoying it much, in a certain way.
Ok as I am typing this post, I am on MSN with AH Gong. Since my blog posts I just post things off my mind, so yah, might be a bit messy.
ok, before I loose my mood to talk about today.
Yesh, One of the girls
SHE CAN'T SHAKE HER HIPS, at the start.
I just find it so so so WASTED. I wan those hourglass shape, she has it, but she was wasting it, she almost wasted it forever. Yes, until I somehow got her shaking. Yesh, Litchie helped me alot.
Agh, yes, I still feel so jealous.
NIDS TO LOOSE WEIGHT.....
Ok, Yes, somehow today, I think that lolicon somehow suspected I was wearing something underneath my shirt. Somehow. Yes, I was wearing my Pink Tube today.
Maybe I was just a bit too conscious, maybe.
AGRHHHH I wan 2 not cut my hair..... Seriously, whats with my mom...
Back to Ah Gong. Need to relieve some steam, even though I'm not through with him for the night.
I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HE WANTS TODAY.
Disclaimer, what I may be saying may just be a bit overboard, but ya, I really need to vent something.
I HAVE FUCKING NO IDEA WHAT IS WRONG WITH GUYS.
Day in day out, they only know how to look at chio bu.
The come to CCA. Only want to find Girlfriend.
No girlfriend will die ah.
Almost all the guys I see in my CCA like that. ALmost all.
Esp Ah Gong. He's just beating ound the bush. Saying what, he cannot target a girl, yet he down there telling me he wants to date that girl. Then now he tells me its a blankshot. Fucking hell, what is he thinking.
And Fucking hell, he down here trying to get him fucking out of this round a bout, anf he offline.
Seriously, he just wants a girl, to boost his fucking moral, so that he can depend on someone. He always says he's independent, but fucking not. I know that. ALmost my entire CCA know that. His Ex prob also know that.
I now am fucking asking myself, why am I still trying to fucking help him. I can easily like dicard him as a fucking fail, but I don't undertand. WHy am I still helping him?
I'm tired, I'm not oblidged to help, yet I am there for him.
I know he helped me, but thinking back, he never went the extra mile. He only did what was convienient. And I have no fucking idea why am I here pushing on, running half the world for him. Looking for answers he should be finding himself.
I feel like a mom. I don't know anymore sometimes.
Everytime I think he made progress, he proves me wrong.
I don't want him to bring everyone around down with him.
I'm still running, forward onward, for him.
Why is he still trying to be a baby.
I'm not gonna give up, I can still do it, there is still hope, something he denies.
I've come this far, why give up.
I looks like square one. Back to when he thinks he's a fucking open book and is not fucking telling us anything. Just that now. Its me alone.
A whole new level, new answer, new denials, same ah gong, same shit, same me
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|2:47 AM|
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