*[[ Restrain, Trapped, Confused ]]*[[Sincerely by Kameyo]]*

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Still can't fucking bring myself to sleep

Tried to act random and act all normal on skype, no luck.

ANyways, ya, a moment ago was viewing Akimme's blog. Heck with anonymousity, I don't think she needs it anyways. Saw a few pics. One image that really got to me, well not really an image, but a still frame of a youtube video.

It was a frame of the Uncle D. Well, for those who know will know.

I just came about a blog via Ah Gong blog, and I just had to see that very image.

I don't know, I feel a weird feeling, a very weird feeling.

I don't know, I feel like I want to dwell back in the past. Back to the days bakachi was working at that GL shop. Well, those days were slack and fun. I learnt so much, so much about life. I never bothered to think back then, I was more or less a nutcase I think. Acting all happy go lucky, not bothered at all. Drive myself towards goals. No pain, no fear.

Whats wrong with me now. I don't know. Was it because I started thinking?

I really don't know anymore. I feel the past was sweeter. Now, its just so pain. I do have my fair share of joy, but today was hell, a torture, I don't even know why did I have to pull back so much, and hold everything in.

I miss the past. The days at the shop. The days with the dance group, I miss them all. Why can't things remain as it was. I feel so insecure moving on. I ever had thoughts of running away, but I just can't do it, yet I'm running. I don't know anymore, I just have to let things go. But its just so pain, why?

Why must people kill each other, and split. I once thought I found happiness in the dance group, but all was lost, in such a short time. I met them quite recently, but I felt something was lacking. I don't know is it just because now I'm so detached from them, so much has happened, or is it just my imagination.

I just feel so lost, I feel like dwelling in the past, even if just for one day. I miss the joys and fun I had. ljh

*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|1:45 AM|

[[ The Trapped girl ]]

Name:Kameyo
Age:forever 18
status:Confused
very confused

[[ The Physical Desires ]]

A not so flat chest
to loose weight
To have a nice body shape
[[ The Cloth Desires ]]

Maido-suit *done*
Taokaka*done*
Jubei*done*
Orange mini Skirt
Pink based Decora Set
Dark Decora Set
Kuro's Jacket
Blue or Pink Seifuku
Punk skirt, preferbly black and red
Solva
Suzumiya Haruhi Seifuku
Many many other nice things @ Taobao
Epic things at this fashion
Red Panties 4 Taokaka
Maya's(Kiva queen) outfit
Decora shoes
[[ The Accessories Desires ]]

Many many kawaii Hair clips
80cm black wig*done*
Chrome wig
Solva Wig
Another casual wig
[[ The Make-up Desires ]]

Foundation*done*
Concealer
Eyeliner*done*
How to use eyeliner
Blusher*done*
eye shadow*done*
Lipstick*done*
Fake eyelashes
contact lenses
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