Friday, June 12, 2009
Stating issues, finally I guess
Yes first thing first, that freaking Fairytale theme is still getting on my nerves. Seriously.
ok now moving on finally.
Well, apparently, I'm lately been very confused about my gender, seriously confused. Yesh, I noe I have a dick down there, but I seriously am still confused, am I a guy or girl. Well, mentally and all.
Yesh, thats my main problem. Apparently, I got a crush on this guy, well, lets just name him WK for now I guess.
Well, personally, I don't really understand myself either. This WK guy, he's pretty much a nice guy, but he seriously can be a moron at times, often also making wrong decsisions and all. Though at the end of it all, he's still cute and kind. Yes, for some reason, I find him very cute. XD
Though the biggest problem I more or less have is that he's straight, very very straight, to get a very very Tsudere girlfriend.
Ya, though I have to agree, she's a nice girl, but still.. ARGH... bcuz of her, well, even if she did not realii exist or what so ever, I guess having a relationship with him is rathe very very impossible.
Well, what confuses me sometimes is, yes, I do have to admit, I do like guys, but, I just feel I'm not like gay, if you get my point. I feel more like wanting to be a girl. Its like, sometimes, I feel so useless as a guy. And seriously, guys can be quite stupid at times, but sometimes, thats also what about them that I like. some times. Ya.
Sometimes, I feel so restricted as a guy. To the eyes of normal people, no one would probably agree to me wearing like skirts almost everyday and all. All because I got a dick below there, which often I feel that its redundant and it gets in the way, all so often and all.
Ya, even though sometimes I'll prefer to live life as a girl, I still can't bring myself to do it. Not cuz I don't want, but I just can't disappoint my mum. Its like, I seriously don't know if she can ever be able to accept the fact.
I know on the surface and all, she's always acting strong, but she's actually very weak in a way. Emotionally. My dad passed away. Well thats very very long time ago. But, although she always acts as though as she's gotten over it, I always doubt it.
She does not like me to keep long hair, which seriously makes me irritated. She also does not like me shaving all the useless hair off my face, cuz my dad never did.
Yes yes, talking about shaving, I need to be getting some cream or something liao. CUz she finally gave me the green light to shave, not long hair. >.< Something like to stop hair growth or something
XD
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|10:31 AM|
Friday, June 12, 2009
Stating issues, finally I guess
Yes first thing first, that freaking Fairytale theme is still getting on my nerves. Seriously.
ok now moving on finally.
Well, apparently, I'm lately been very confused about my gender, seriously confused. Yesh, I noe I have a dick down there, but I seriously am still confused, am I a guy or girl. Well, mentally and all.
Yesh, thats my main problem. Apparently, I got a crush on this guy, well, lets just name him WK for now I guess.
Well, personally, I don't really understand myself either. This WK guy, he's pretty much a nice guy, but he seriously can be a moron at times, often also making wrong decsisions and all. Though at the end of it all, he's still cute and kind. Yes, for some reason, I find him very cute. XD
Though the biggest problem I more or less have is that he's straight, very very straight, to get a very very Tsudere girlfriend.
Ya, though I have to agree, she's a nice girl, but still.. ARGH... bcuz of her, well, even if she did not realii exist or what so ever, I guess having a relationship with him is rathe very very impossible.
Well, what confuses me sometimes is, yes, I do have to admit, I do like guys, but, I just feel I'm not like gay, if you get my point. I feel more like wanting to be a girl. Its like, sometimes, I feel so useless as a guy. And seriously, guys can be quite stupid at times, but sometimes, thats also what about them that I like. some times. Ya.
Sometimes, I feel so restricted as a guy. To the eyes of normal people, no one would probably agree to me wearing like skirts almost everyday and all. All because I got a dick below there, which often I feel that its redundant and it gets in the way, all so often and all.
Ya, even though sometimes I'll prefer to live life as a girl, I still can't bring myself to do it. Not cuz I don't want, but I just can't disappoint my mum. Its like, I seriously don't know if she can ever be able to accept the fact.
I know on the surface and all, she's always acting strong, but she's actually very weak in a way. Emotionally. My dad passed away. Well thats very very long time ago. But, although she always acts as though as she's gotten over it, I always doubt it.
She does not like me to keep long hair, which seriously makes me irritated. She also does not like me shaving all the useless hair off my face, cuz my dad never did.
Yes yes, talking about shaving, I need to be getting some cream or something liao. CUz she finally gave me the green light to shave, not long hair. >.< Something like to stop hair growth or something
XD
*[[ Bounded By Chains... ]]*
|10:31 AM|
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